The Man of Feeling
Henry Mackenzie
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EDITOR'S INTRODUCTION
AUTHOR'S INTRODUCTION
CHAPTER XI {16}—ON BASHFULNESS.—A CHARACTER.—
HIS OPINION ON THAT SUBJECT
CHAPTER XII—OF WORLDLY INTERESTS
CHAPTER XIII—THE MAN OF FEELING IN LOVE
CHAPTER XIV—HE SETS OUT ON HIS JOURNEY—THE
BEGGAR AND HIS DOG
CHAPTER XIX—HE MAKES A SECOND EXPEDITION TO THE
BARONET'S. THE LAUDABLE AMBITION OF A YOUNG MAN TO BE THOUGHT
SOMETHING BY THE WORLD
CHAPTER XX—HE VISITS BEDLAM.—THE DISTRESSES OF
A DAUGHTER
CHAPTER XXI—THE MISANTHROPE
CHAPTER XXV—HIS SKILL IN PHYSIOGNOMY
CHAPTER XXVI—FRUITS OF THE DEAD SEA
CHAPTER XXVII—HIS SKILL IN PHYSIOGNOMY IS
DOUBTED
CHAPTER XXVIII—HE KEEPS HIS APPOINTMENT
CHAPTER XXIX—THE DISTRESSES OF A FATHER
CHAPTER XXXIII—HE LEAVES LONDON—CHARACTERS IN
A STAGE-COACH
CHAPTER XXXIV—HE MEETS AN OLD ACQUAINTANCE
CHAPTER XXXV—HE MISSES AN OLD ACQUAINTANCE.—
AN ADVENTURE CONSEQUENT UPON IT
CHAPTER XXXVI—HE RETURNS HOME.—A DESCRIPTION
OF HIS RETINUE
CHAPTER XL—THE MAN OF FEELING JEALOUS
CHAPTER LV—HE SEES MISS WALTON, AND IS HAPPY
CHAPTER LVI—THE EMOTIONS OF THE HEART
Henry Mackenzie, the son of an Edinburgh physician, was born in
August, 1745. After education in the University of Edinburgh he went
to London in 1765, at the age of twenty, for law studies, returned to
Edinburgh, and became Crown Attorney in the Scottish Court of
Exchequer. When Mackenzie was in London, Sterne's "Tristram Shandy"
was in course of publication. The first two volumes had appeared in
1759, and the ninth appeared in 1767, followed in 1768, the year of
Sterne's death, by "The Sentimental Journey." Young Mackenzie had a
strong bent towards literature, and while studying law in London, he
read Sterne, and falling in with the tone of sentiment which Sterne
himself caught from the spirit of the time and the example of Rousseau,
he wrote "The Man of Feeling." This book was published, without
author's name, in 1771. It was so popular that a young clergyman made
a copy of it popular with imagined passages of erasure and correction,
on the strength of which he claimed to be its author, and obliged Henry
Mackenzie to declare himself. In 1773 Mackenzie published a second
novel, "The Man of the World," and in 1777 a third, "Julia de
Roubigné." An essay-reading society in Edinburgh, of which he was a
leader, started in January, 1779, a weekly paper called The Mirror,
which he edited until May, 1780. Its writers afterwards joined in
producing The Lounger, which lasted from February, 1785, to
January, 1787. Henry Mackenzie contributed forty-two papers to The
Mirror and fifty-seven to The Lounger. When the Royal
Society of Edinburgh was founded Henry Mackenzie was active as one of
its first members. He was also one of the founders of the Highland
Society.
Although his "Man of Feeling" was a serious reflection of the
false sentiment of the Revolution, Mackenzie joined afterwards in
writing tracts to dissuade the people from faith in the doctrines of
the Revolutionists. Mackenzie wrote also a tragedy, "The Prince of
Tunis," which was acted with success at Edinburgh, and a comedy, "The
White Hypocrite," which was acted once only at Covent garden. He died
at the age of eighty-six, on the 13th June, 1831, having for many years
been regarded as an elder friend of their own craft by the men of
letters who in his days gave dignity to Edinburgh society, and caused
the town to be called the Modern Athens.
A man of refined taste, who caught the tone of the French
sentiment of his time, has, of course, pleased French critics, and has
been translated into French. "The Man of Feeling" begins with
imitation of Sterne, and proceeds in due course through so many tears
that it is hardly to be called a dry book. As guide to persons of a
calculating disposition who may read these pages I append an index to
the Tears shed in "The Man of Feeling."
My dog had made a point on a piece of fallow-ground, and led the
curate and me two or three hundred yards over that and some stubble
adjoining, in a breathless state of expectation, on a burning first of
September.
It was a false point, and our labour was vain: yet, to do Rover
justice (for he's an excellent dog, though I have lost his pedigree),
the fault was none of his, the birds were gone: the curate showed me
the spot where they had lain basking, at the root of an old hedge.
I stopped and cried Hem! The curate is fatter than I; he wiped
the sweat from his brow.
There is no state where one is apter to pause and look round one,
than after such a disappointment. It is even so in life. When we have
been hurrying on, impelled by some warm wish or other, looking neither
to the right hand nor to the left—we find of a sudden that all our
gay hopes are flown; and the only slender consolation that some friend
can give us, is to point where they were once to be found. And lo! if
we are not of that combustible race, who will rather beat their heads
in spite, than wipe their brows with the curate, we look round and say,
with the nauseated listlessness of the king of Israel, "All is vanity
and vexation of spirit."
I looked round with some such grave apophthegm in my mind when I
discovered, for the first time, a venerable pile, to which the
enclosure belonged. An air of melancholy hung about it. There was a
languid stillness in the day, and a single crow, that perched on an old
tree by the side of the gate, seemed to delight in the echo of its own
croaking.
I leaned on my gun and looked; but I had not breath enough to ask
the curate a question. I observed carving on the bark of some of the
trees: 'twas indeed the only mark of human art about the place, except
that some branches appeared to have been lopped, to give a view of the
cascade, which was formed by a little rill at some distance.
Just at that instant I saw pass between the trees a young lady
with a book in her hand. I stood upon a stone to observe her; but the
curate sat him down on the grass, and leaning his back where I stood,
told me, "That was the daughter of a neighbouring gentleman of the name
of WALTON, whom he had seen walking there more than once.
"Some time ago," he said, "one HARLEY lived there, a whimsical
sort of man I am told, but I was not then in the cure; though, if I had
a turn for those things, I might know a good deal of his history, for
the greatest part of it is still in my possession."
"His history!" said I. "Nay, you may call it what you please,"
said the curate; for indeed it is no more a history than it is a
sermon. The way I came by it was this: some time ago, a grave, oddish
kind of a man boarded at a farmer's in this parish: the country people
called him The Ghost; and he was known by the slouch in his gait, and
the length of his stride. I was but little acquainted with him, for he
never frequented any of the clubs hereabouts. Yet for all he used to
walk a-nights, he was as gentle as a lamb at times; for I have seen him
playing at teetotum with the children, on the great stone at the door
of our churchyard.
"Soon after I was made curate, he left the parish, and went nobody
knows whither; and in his room was found a bundle of papers, which was
brought to me by his landlord. I began to read them, but I soon grew
weary of the task; for, besides that the hand is intolerably bad, I
could never find the author in one strain for two chapters together;
and I don't believe there's a single syllogism from beginning to end."
"I should be glad to see this medley," said I. "You shall see it
now," answered the curate, "for I always take it along with me
a-shooting." "How came it so torn?" "'Tis excellent wadding," said
the curate.—This was a plea of expediency I was not in a condition to
answer; for I had actually in my pocket great part of an edition of one
of the German Illustrissimi, for the very same purpose. We exchanged
books; and by that means (for the curate was a strenuous logician) we
probably saved both.
When I returned to town, I had leisure to peruse the acquisition I
had made: I found it a bundle of little episodes, put together without
art, and of no importance on the whole, with something of nature, and
little else in them. I was a good deal affected with some very
trifling passages in it; and had the name of Marmontel, or a
Richardson, been on the title-page—'tis odds that I should have wept:
But
One is ashamed to be pleased with the works of one knows not whom.
CHAPTER XI
{16}—ON BASHFULNESS.—A CHARACTER.—HIS OPINION ON THAT SUBJECT
There is some rust about every man at the beginning; though in
some nations (among the French for instance) the ideas of the
inhabitants, from climate, or what other cause you will, are so
vivacious, so eternally on the wing, that they must, even in small
societies, have a frequent collision; the rust therefore will wear off
sooner: but in Britain it often goes with a man to his grave; nay, he
dares not even pen a hic jacet to speak out for him after his
death.
"Let them rub it off by travel," said the baronet's brother, who
was a striking instance of excellent metal, shamefully rusted. I had
drawn my chair near his. Let me paint the honest old man: 'tis but one
passing sentence to preserve his image in my mind.
He sat in his usual attitude, with his elbow rested on his knee,
and his fingers pressed on his cheek. His face was shaded by his hand;
yet it was a face that might once have been well accounted handsome;
its features were manly and striking, a dignity resided on his
eyebrows, which were the largest I remember to have seen. His person
was tall and well-made; but the indolence of his nature had now
inclined it to corpulency.
His remarks were few, and made only to his familiar friends; but
they were such as the world might have heard with veneration: and his
heart, uncorrupted by its ways, was ever warm in the cause of virtue
and his friends.
He is now forgotten and gone! The last time I was at Silton Hall,
I saw his chair stand in its corner by the fire-side; there was an
additional cushion on it, and it was occupied by my young lady's
favourite lap dog. I drew near unperceived, and pinched its ears in
the bitterness of my soul; the creature howled, and ran to its
mistress. She did not suspect the author of its misfortune, but she
bewailed it in the most pathetic terms; and kissing its lips, laid it
gently on her lap, and covered it with a cambric handkerchief. I sat
in my old friend's seat; I heard the roar of mirth and gaiety around
me: poor Ben Silton! I gave thee a tear then: accept of one cordial
drop that falls to thy memory now.
"They should wear it off by travel."—Why, it is true, said I,
that will go far; but then it will often happen, that in the velocity
of a modern tour, and amidst the materials through which it is commonly
made, the friction is so violent, that not only the rust, but the metal
too, is lost in the progress.
"Give me leave to correct the expression of your metaphor," said
Mr. Silton: "that is not always rust which is acquired by the
inactivity of the body on which it preys; such, perhaps, is the case
with me, though indeed I was never cleared from my youth; but (taking
it in its first stage) it is rather an encrustation, which nature has
given for purposes of the greatest wisdom."
"You are right," I returned; "and sometimes, like certain precious
fossils, there may be hid under it gems of the purest brilliancy."
"Nay, farther," continued Mr. Silton, "there are two distinct
sorts of what we call bashfulness; this, the awkwardness of a booby,
which a few steps into the world will convert into the pertness of a
coxcomb; that, a consciousness, which the most delicate feelings
produce, and the most extensive knowledge cannot always remove."
From the incidents I have already related, I imagine it will be
concluded that Harley was of the latter species of bashful animals; at
least, if Mr. Silton's principle is just, it may be argued on this
side; for the gradation of the first mentioned sort, it is certain, he
never attained. Some part of his external appearance was modelled from
the company of those gentlemen, whom the antiquity of a family, now
possessed of bare £250 a year, entitled its representative to approach:
these indeed were not many; great part of the property in his
neighbourhood being in the hands of merchants, who had got rich by
their lawful calling abroad, and the sons of stewards, who had got rich
by their lawful calling at home: persons so perfectly versed in the
ceremonial of thousands, tens of thousands, and hundreds of thousands
(whose degrees of precedency are plainly demonstrable from the first
page of the Complete Accomptant, or Young Man's Best Pocket Companion)
that a bow at church from them to such a man as Harley would have made
the parson look back into his sermon for some precept of Christian
humility.
There are certain interests which the world supposes every man to
have, and which therefore are properly enough termed worldly; but the
world is apt to make an erroneous estimate: ignorant of the
dispositions which constitute our happiness or misery, they bring to an
undistinguished scale the means of the one, as connected with power,
wealth, or grandeur, and of the other with their contraries.
Philosophers and poets have often protested against this decision; but
their arguments have been despised as declamatory, or ridiculed as
romantic.
There are never wanting to a young man some grave and prudent
friends to set him right in this particular, if he need it; to watch
his ideas as they arise, and point them to those objects which a wise
man should never forget.
Harley did not want for some monitors of this sort. He was
frequently told of men whose fortunes enabled them to command all the
luxuries of life, whose fortunes were of their own acquirement: his
envy was invited by a description of their happiness, and his emulation
by a recital of the means which had procured it.
Harley was apt to hear those lectures with indifference; nay,
sometimes they got the better of his temper; and as the instances were
not always amiable, provoked, on his part, some reflections, which I am
persuaded his good-nature would else have avoided.
Indeed, I have observed one ingredient, somewhat necessary in a
man's composition towards happiness, which people of feeling would do
well to acquire; a certain respect for the follies of mankind: for
there are so many fools whom the opinion of the world entitles to
regard, whom accident has placed in heights of which they are unworthy,
that he who cannot restrain his contempt or indignation at the sight
will be too often quarrelling with the disposal of things to relish
that share which is allotted to himself. I do not mean, however, to
insinuate this to have been the case with Harley; on the contrary, if
we might rely on his own testimony, the conceptions he had of pomp and
grandeur served to endear the state which Providence had assigned him.
He lost his father, the last surviving of his parents, as I have
already related, when he was a boy. The good man, from a fear of
offending, as well as a regard to his son, had named him a variety of
guardians; one consequence of which was, that they seldom met at all to
consider the affairs of their ward; and when they did meet, their
opinions were so opposite, that the only possible method of
conciliation was the mediatory power of a dinner and a bottle, which
commonly interrupted, not ended, the dispute; and after that
interruption ceased, left the consulting parties in a condition not
very proper for adjusting it. His education therefore had been but
indifferently attended to; and after being taken from a country school,
at which he had been boarded, the young gentleman was suffered to be
his own master in the subsequent branches of literature, with some
assistance from the parson of the parish in languages and philosophy,
and from the exciseman in arithmetic and book-keeping. One of his
guardians, indeed, who, in his youth, had been an inhabitant of the
Temple, set him to read Coke upon Lyttelton: a book which is very
properly put into the hands of beginners in that science, as its
simplicity is accommodated to their understandings, and its size to
their inclination. He profited but little by the perusal; but it was
not without its use in the family: for his maiden aunt applied it
commonly to the laudable purpose of pressing her rebellious linens to
the folds she had allotted them.
There were particularly two ways of increasing his fortune, which
might have occurred to people of less foresight than the counsellors we
have mentioned. One of these was, the prospect of his succeeding to an
old lady, a distant relation, who was known to be possessed of a very
large sum in the stocks: but in this their hopes were disappointed; for
the young man was so untoward in his disposition, that, notwithstanding
the instructions he daily received, his visits rather tended to
alienate than gain the good-will of his kinswoman. He sometimes looked
grave when the old lady told the jokes of her youth; he often refused
to eat when she pressed him, and was seldom or never provided with
sugar-candy or liquorice when she was seized with a fit of coughing:
nay, he had once the rudeness to fall asleep while she was describing
the composition and virtues of her favourite cholic-water. In short,
be accommodated himself so ill to her humour, that she died, and did
not leave him a farthing.
The other method pointed out to him was an endeavour to get a
lease of some crown-lands, which lay contiguous to his little paternal
estate. This, it was imagined, might be easily procured, as the crown
did not draw so much rent as Harley could afford to give, with very
considerable profit to himself; and the then lessee had rendered
himself so obnoxious to the ministry, by the disposal of his vote at an
election, that he could not expect a renewal. This, however, needed
some interest with the great, which Harley or his father never
possessed.
His neighbour, Mr. Walton, having heard of this affair, generously
offered his assistance to accomplish it. He told him, that though he
had long been a stranger to courtiers, yet he believed there were some
of them who might pay regard to his recommendation; and that, if he
thought it worth the while to take a London journey upon the business,
he would furnish him with a letter of introduction to a baronet of his
acquaintance, who had a great deal to say with the first lord of the
treasury.
When his friends heard of this offer, they pressed him with the
utmost earnestness to accept of it.
They did not fail to enumerate the many advantages which a certain
degree of spirit and assurance gives a man who would make a figure in
the world: they repeated their instances of good fortune in others,
ascribed them all to a happy forwardness of disposition; and made so
copious a recital of the disadvantages which attend the opposite
weakness, that a stranger, who had heard them, would have been led to
imagine, that in the British code there was some disqualifying statute
against any citizen who should be convicted of—modesty.
Harley, though he had no great relish for the attempt, yet could
not resist the torrent of motives that assaulted him; and as he needed
but little preparation for his journey, a day, not very distant, was
fixed for his departure.
The day before that on which he set out, he went to take leave of
Mr. Walton.—We would conceal nothing;—there was another person of
the family to whom also the visit was intended, on whose account,
perhaps, there were some tenderer feelings in the bosom of Harley than
his gratitude for the friendly notice of that gentleman (though he was
seldom deficient in that virtue) could inspire. Mr. Walton had a
daughter; and such a daughter! we will attempt some description of her
by and by.
Harley's notions of the , or beautiful, were not always to be
defined, nor indeed such as the world would always assent to, though we
could define them. A blush, a phrase of affability to an inferior, a
tear at a moving tale, were to him, like the Cestus of Cytherea,
unequalled in conferring beauty. For all these Miss Walton was
remarkable; but as these, like the above-mentioned Cestus, are perhaps
still more powerful when the wearer is possessed of souse degree of
beauty, commonly so called, it happened, that, from this cause, they
had more than usual power in the person of that young lady.
She was now arrived at that period of life which takes, or is
supposed to take, from the flippancy of girlhood those sprightlinesses
with which some good-natured old maids oblige the world at
three-score. She had been ushered into life (as that word is used in
the dialect of St. James's) at seventeen, her father being then in
parliament, and living in London: at seventeen, therefore, she had been
a universal toast; her health, now she was four-and-twenty, was only
drank by those who knew her face at least. Her complexion was mellowed
into a paleness, which certainly took from her beauty; but agreed, at
least Harley used to say so, with the pensive softness of her mind.
Her eyes were of that gentle hazel colour which is rather mild than
piercing; and, except when they were lighted up by good-humour, which
was frequently the case, were supposed by the fine gentlemen to want
fire. Her air and manner were elegant in the highest degree, and were
as sure of commanding respect as their mistress was far from demanding
it. Her voice was inexpressibly soft; it was, according to that
incomparable simile of Otway's,
—"like the shepherd's pipe upon the mountains,
When all his little flock's at feed before him."
The effect it had upon Harley, himself used to paint ridiculously
enough; and ascribed it to powers, which few believed, and nobody cared
for.
Her conversation was always cheerful, but rarely witty; and
without the smallest affectation of learning, had as much sentiment in
it as would have puzzled a Turk, upon his principles of female
materialism, to account for. Her beneficence was unbounded; indeed the
natural tenderness of her heart might have been argued, by the
frigidity of a casuist, as detracting from her virtue in this respect,
for her humanity was a feeling, not a principle: but minds like
Harley's are not very apt to make this distinction, and generally give
our virtue credit for all that benevolence which is instinctive in our
nature.
As her father had some years retired to the country, Harley had
frequent opportunities of seeing her. He looked on her for some time
merely with that respect and admiration which her appearance seemed to
demand, and the opinion of others conferred upon her from this cause,
perhaps, and from that extreme sensibility of which we have taken
frequent notice, Harley was remarkably silent in her presence. He
heard her sentiments with peculiar attention, sometimes with looks very
expressive of approbation; but seldom declared his opinion on the
subject, much less made compliments to the lady on the justness of her
remarks.
From this very reason it was that Miss Walton frequently took more
particular notice of him than of other visitors, who, by the laws of
precedency, were better entitled to it: it was a mode of politeness she
had peculiarly studied, to bring to the line of that equality, which is
ever necessary for the ease of our guests, those whose sensibility had
placed them below it.
Harley saw this; for though he was a child in the drama of the
world, yet was it not altogether owing to a want of knowledge on his
part; on the contrary, the most delicate consciousness of propriety
often kindled that blush which marred the performance of it: this
raised his esteem something above what the most sanguine descriptions
of her goodness had been able to do; for certain it is, that
notwithstanding the laboured definitions which very wise men have given
us of the inherent beauty of virtue, we are always inclined to think
her handsomest when she condescends to smile upon ourselves.
It would be trite to observe the easy gradation from esteem to
love: in the bosom of Harley there scarce needed a transition; for
there were certain seasons when his ideas were flushed to a degree much
above their common complexion. In times not credulous of inspiration,
we should account for this from some natural cause; but we do not mean
to account for it at all; it were sufficient to describe its effects;
but they were sometimes so ludicrous, as might derogate from the
dignity of the sensations which produced them to describe. They were
treated indeed as such by most of Harley's sober friends, who often
laughed very heartily at the awkward blunders of the real Harley, when
the different faculties, which should have prevented them, were
entirely occupied by the ideal. In some of these paroxysms of fancy,
Miss Walton did not fail to be introduced; and the picture which had
been drawn amidst the surrounding objects of unnoticed levity was now
singled out to be viewed through the medium of romantic imagination: it
was improved of course, and esteem was a word inexpressive of the
feelings which it excited.
He had taken leave of his aunt on the eve of his intended
departure; but the good lady's affection for her nephew interrupted her
sleep, and early as it was next morning when Harley came downstairs to
set out, he found her in the parlour with a tear on her cheek, and her
caudle-cup in her hand. She knew enough of physic to prescribe against
going abroad of a morning with an empty stomach. She gave her blessing
with the draught; her instructions she had delivered the night before.
They consisted mostly of negatives, for London, in her idea, was so
replete with temptations that it needed the whole armour of her
friendly cautions to repel their attacks.
Peter stood at the door. We have mentioned this faithful fellow
formerly: Harley's father had taken him up an orphan, and saved him
from being cast on the parish; and he had ever since remained in the
service of him and of his son. Harley shook him by the hand as he
passed, smiling, as if he had said, "I will not weep." He sprung
hastily into the chaise that waited for him; Peter folded up the step.
"My dear master," said he, shaking the solitary lock that hung on
either side of his head, "I have been told as how London is a sad
place." He was choked with the thought, and his benediction could not
be heard:—but it shall be heard, honest Peter! where these tears will
add to its energy.
In a few hours Harley reached the inn where he proposed
breakfasting, but the fulness of his heart would not suffer him to eat
a morsel. He walked out on the road, and gaining a little height,
stood gazing on that quarter he had left. He looked for his wonted
prospect, his fields, his woods, and his hills: they were lost in the
distant clouds! He pencilled them on the clouds, and bade them
farewell with a sigh!
He sat down on a large stone to take out a little pebble from his
shoe, when he saw, at some distance, a beggar approaching him. He had
on a loose sort of coat, mended with different-coloured rags, amongst
which the blue and the russet were the predominant. He had a short
knotty stick in his hand, and on the top of it was stuck a ram's horn;
his knees (though he was no pilgrim) had worn the stuff of his
breeches; he wore no shoes, and his stockings had entirely lost that
part of them which should have covered his feet and ankles; in his
face, however, was the plump appearance of good humour; he walked a
good round pace, and a crook-legged dog trotted at his heels.
"Our delicacies," said Harley to himself, "are fantastic; they are
not in nature! that beggar walks over the sharpest of these stones
barefooted, whilst I have lost the most delightful dream in the world,
from the smallest of them happening to get into my shoe." The beggar
had by this time come up, and, pulling off a piece of hat, asked
charity of Harley; the dog began to beg too:—it was impossible to
resist both; and, in truth, the want of shoes and stockings had made
both unnecessary, for Harley had destined sixpence for him before. The
beggar, on receiving it, poured forth blessings without number; and,
with a sort of smile on his countenance, said to Harley "that if he
wanted to have his fortune told"—Harley turned his eye briskly on the
beggar: it was an unpromising look for the subject of a prediction, and
silenced the prophet immediately. "I would much rather learn," said
Harley, "what it is in your power to tell me: your trade must be an
entertaining one; sit down on this stone, and let me know something of
your profession; I have often thought of turning fortune-teller for a
week or two myself."
"Master," replied the beggar, "I like your frankness much; God
knows I had the humour of plain-dealing in me from a child, but there
is no doing with it in this world; we must live as we can, and lying
is, as you call it, my profession, but I was in some sort forced to the
trade, for I dealt once in telling truth.
"I was a labourer, sir, and gained as much as to make me live: I
never laid by indeed: for I was reckoned a piece of a wag, and your
wags, I take it, are seldom rich, Mr. Harley."
"So," said Harley, "you seem to know me."
"Ay, there are few folks in the country that I don't know
something of: how should I tell fortunes else?"
"True; but to go on with your story: you were a labourer, you say,
and a wag; your industry, I suppose, you left with your old trade, but
your humour you preserve to be of use to you in your new."
"What signifies sadness, sir? a man grows lean on't: but I was
brought to my idleness by degrees; first I could not work, and it went
against my stomach to work ever after. I was seized with a jail fever
at the time of the assizes being in the county where I lived; for I was
always curious to get acquainted with the felons, because they are
commonly fellows of much mirth and little thought, qualities I had ever
an esteem for. In the height of this fever, Mr. Harley, the house
where I lay took fire, and burnt to the ground; I was carried out in
that condition, and lay all the rest of my illness in a barn. I got
the better of my disease, however, but I was so weak that I spit blood
whenever I attempted to work. I had no relation living that I knew of,
and I never kept a friend above a week, when I was able to joke; I
seldom remained above six months in a parish, so that I might have died
before I had found a settlement in any: thus I was forced to beg my
bread, and a sorry trade I found it, Mr. Harley. I told all my
misfortunes truly, but they were seldom believed; and the few who gave
me a halfpenny as they passed did it with a shake of the head, and an
injunction not to trouble them with a long story. In short, I found
that people don't care to give alms without some security for their
money; a wooden leg or a withered arm is a sort of draught upon heaven
for those who choose to have their money placed to account there; so I
changed my plan, and, instead of telling my own misfortunes, began to
prophesy happiness to others. This I found by much the better way:
folks will always listen when the tale is their own, and of many who
say they do not believe in fortune-telling, I have known few on whom it
had not a very sensible effect. I pick up the names of their
acquaintance; amours and little squabbles are easily gleaned among
servants and neighbours; and indeed people themselves are the best
intelligencers in the world for our purpose: they dare not puzzle us
for their own sakes, for every one is anxious to hear what they wish to
believe, and they who repeat it, to laugh at it when they have done,
are generally more serious than their hearers are apt to imagine. With
a tolerable good memory, and some share of cunning, with the help of
walking a-nights over heaths and church-yards, with this, and showing
the tricks of that there dog, whom I stole from the serjeant of a
marching regiment (and by the way, he can steal too upon occasion), I
make shift to pick up a livelihood. My trade, indeed, is none of the
honestest; yet people are not much cheated neither who give a few
half-pence for a prospect of happiness, which I have heard some persons
say is all a man can arrive at in this world. But I must bid you good
day, sir, for I have three miles to walk before noon, to inform some
boarding-school young ladies whether their husbands are to be peers of
the realm or captains in the army: a question which I promised to
answer them by that time."
Harley had drawn a shilling from his pocket; but Virtue bade him
consider on whom he was going to bestow it. Virtue held back his arm;
but a milder form, a younger sister of Virtue's, not so severe as
Virtue, nor so serious as Pity, smiled upon him; his fingers lost their
compression, nor did Virtue offer to catch the money as it fell. It
had no sooner reached the ground than the watchful cur (a trick he had
been taught) snapped it up, and, contrary to the most approved method
of stewardship, delivered it immediately into the hands of his master.
We have related, in a former chapter, the little success of his
first visit to the great man, for whom he had the introductory letter
from Mr. Walton. To people of equal sensibility, the influence of
those trifles we mentioned on his deportment will not appear
surprising, but to his friends in the country they could not be stated,
nor would they have allowed them any place in the account. In some of
their letters, therefore, which he received soon after, they expressed
their surprise at his not having been more urgent in his application,
and again recommended the blushless assiduity of successful merit.
He resolved to make another attempt at the baronet's; fortified
with higher notions of his own dignity, and with less apprehension of
repulse. In his way to Grosvenor Square he began to ruminate on the
folly of mankind, who affixed those ideas of superiority to riches,
which reduced the minds of men, by nature equal with the more
fortunate, to that sort of servility which he felt in his own. By the
time he had reached the Square, and was walking along the pavement
which led to the baronet's, he had brought his reasoning on the subject
to such a point, that the conclusion, by every rule of logic, should
have led him to a thorough indifference in his approaches to a
fellow-mortal, whether that fellow-mortal was possessed of six or six
thousand pounds a year. It is probable, however, that the premises had
been improperly formed: for it is certain, that when he approached the
great man's door he felt his heart agitated by an unusual pulsation.
He had almost reached it, when he observed among gentleman coming
out, dressed in a white frock and a red laced waistcoat, with a small
switch in his hand, which he seemed to manage with a particular good
grace. As he passed him on the steps, the stranger very politely made
him a bow, which Harley returned, though he could not remember ever
having seen him before. He asked Harley, in the same civil manner, if
he was going to wait on his friend the baronet. "For I was just
calling," said he, "and am sorry to find that he is gone for some days
into the country."
Harley thanked him for his information, and was turning from the
door, when the other observed that it would be proper to leave his
name, and very obligingly knocked for that purpose.
"Here is a gentleman, Tom, who meant to have waited on your
master."
"Your name, if you please, sir?"
"Harley."
"You'll remember, Tom, Harley."
The door was shut. "Since we are here," said he, "we shall not
lose our walk if we add a little to it by a turn or two in Hyde Park."
He accompanied this proposal with a second bow, and Harley
accepted of it by another in return.
The conversation, as they walked, was brilliant on the side of his
companion. The playhouse, the opera, with every occurrence in high
life, he seemed perfectly master of; and talked of some reigning
beauties of quality in a manner the most feeling in the world. Harley
admired the happiness of his vivacity, and, opposite as it was to the
reserve of his own nature, began to be much pleased with its effects.
Though I am not of opinion with some wise men, that the existence
of objects depends on idea, yet I am convinced that their appearance is
not a little influenced by it. The optics of some minds are in so
unlucky a perspective as to throw a certain shade on every picture that
is presented to them, while those of others (of which number was
Harley), like the mirrors of the ladies, have a wonderful effect in
bettering their complexions. Through such a medium perhaps he was
looking on his present companion.
When they had finished their walk, and were returning by the
corner of the Park, they observed a board hung out of a window
signifying, "An excellent ORDINARY on Saturdays and Sundays." It
happened to be Saturday, and the table was covered for the purpose.
"What if we should go in and dine here, if you happen not to be
engaged, sir?" said the young gentleman. "It is not impossible but we
shall meet with some original or other; it is a sort of humour I like
hugely."
Harley made no objection, and the stranger showed him the way into
the parlour.
He was placed, by the courtesy of his introductor, in an arm-chair
that stood at one side of the fire. Over against him was seated a man
of a grave considering aspect, with that look of sober prudence which
indicates what is commonly called a warm man. He wore a pretty large
wig, which had once been white, but was now of a brownish yellow; his
coat was one of those modest-coloured drabs which mock the injuries of
dust and dirt; two jack-boots concealed, in part, the well-mended knees
of an old pair of buckskin breeches; while the spotted handkerchief
round his neck preserved at once its owner from catching cold and his
neck-cloth from being dirtied. Next him sat another man, with a
tankard in his hand and a quid of tobacco in his cheek, whose eye was
rather more vivacious, and whose dress was something smarter.
The first-mentioned gentleman took notice that the room had been
so lately washed, as not to have had time to dry, and remarked that wet
lodging was unwholesome for man or beast. He looked round at the same
time for a poker to stir the fire with, which, he at last observed to
the company, the people of the house had removed in order to save their
coals. This difficulty, however, he overcame by the help of Harley's
stick, saying, "that as they should, no doubt, pay for their fire in
some shape or other, he saw no reason why they should not have the use
of it while they sat."
The door was now opened for the admission of dinner. "I don't
know how it is with you, gentlemen," said Harley's new acquaintance,
"but I am afraid I shall not be able to get down a morsel at this
horrid mechanical hour of dining." He sat down, however, and did not
show any want of appetite by his eating. He took upon him the carving
of the meat, and criticised on the goodness of the pudding.
When the table-cloth was removed, he proposed calling for some
punch, which was readily agreed to; he seemed at first inclined to make
it himself, but afterwards changed his mind, and left that province to
the waiter, telling him to have it pure West Indian, or he could not
taste a drop of it.
When the punch was brought he undertook to fill the glasses and
call the toasts. "The King."—The toast naturally produced politics.
It is the privilege of Englishmen to drink the king's health, and to
talk of his conduct. The man who sat opposite to Harley (and who by
this time, partly from himself, and partly from his acquaintance on his
left hand, was discovered to be a grazier) observed, "That it was a
shame for so many pensioners to be allowed to take the bread out of the
mouth of the poor."
"Ay, and provisions," said his friend, "were never so dear in the
memory of man; I wish the king and his counsellors would look to that."
"As for the matter of provisions, neighbour Wrightson," he
replied, "I am sure the prices of cattle—"
A dispute would have probably ensued, but it was prevented by the
spruce toastmaster, who gave a sentiment, and turning to the two
politicians, "Pray, gentlemen," said he, "let us have done with these
musty politics: I would always leave them to the beer-suckers in
Butcher Row. Come, let us have something of the fine arts. That was a
damn'd hard match between Joe the Nailor and Tim Bucket. The knowing
ones were cursedly taken in there! I lost a cool hundred myself,
faith."
At mention of the cool hundred, the grazier threw his eyes aslant,
with a mingled look of doubt and surprise; while the man at his elbow
looked arch, and gave a short emphatical sort of cough.
Both seemed to be silenced, however, by this intelligence; and
while the remainder of the punch lasted the conversation was wholly
engrossed by the gentleman with the fine waistcoat, who told a great
many "immense comical stories" and "confounded smart things," as he
termed them, acted and spoken by lords, ladies, and young bucks of
quality, of his acquaintance. At last, the grazier, pulling out a
watch, of a very unusual size, and telling the hour, said that he had
an appointment.
"Is it so late?" said the young gentleman; "then I am afraid I
have missed an appointment already; but the truth is, I am cursedly
given to missing of appointments."
When the grazier and he were gone, Harley turned to the remaining
personage, and asked him if he knew that young gentleman. "A
gentleman!" said he; "ay, he is one of your gentlemen at the top of an
affidavit. I knew him, some years ago, in the quality of a footman;
and I believe he had some times the honour to be a pimp. At last, some
of the great folks, to whom he had been serviceable in both capacities,
had him made a gauger; in which station he remains, and has the
assurance to pretend an acquaintance with men of quality. The impudent
dog! with a few shillings in his pocket, he will talk you three times
as much as my friend Mundy there, who is worth nine thousand if he's
worth a farthing. But I know the rascal, and despise him, as he
deserves."
Harley began to despise him too, and to conceive some indignation
at having sat with patience to hear such a fellow speak nonsense. But
he corrected himself by reflecting that he was perhaps as well
entertained, and instructed too, by this same modest gauger, as he
should have been by such a man as he had thought proper to personate.
And surely the fault may more properly be imputed to that rank where
the futility is real than where it is feigned: to that rank whose
opportunities for nobler accomplishments have only served to rear a
fabric of folly which the untutored hand of affectation, even among the
meanest of mankind, can imitate with success.
Or those things called Sights in London, which every stranger is
supposed desirous to see, Bedlam is one. To that place, therefore, an
acquaintance of Harley's, after having accompanied him to several other
shows, proposed a visit. Harley objected to it, "because," said he, "I
think it an inhuman practice to expose the greatest misery with which
our nature is afflicted to every idle visitant who can afford a
trifling perquisite to the keeper; especially as it is a distress which
the humane must see, with the painful reflection, that it is not in
their power to alleviate it." He was overpowered, however, by the
solicitations of his friend and the other persons of the party (amongst
whom were several ladies); and they went in a body to Moorfields.
Their conductor led them first to the dismal mansions of those who
are in the most horrid state of incurable madness. The clanking of
chains, the wildness of their cries, and the imprecations which some of
them uttered, formed a scene inexpressibly shocking. Harley and his
companions, especially the female part of them, begged their guide to
return; he seemed surprised at their uneasiness, and was with
difficulty prevailed on to leave that part of the house without showing
them some others: who, as he expressed it in the phrase of those that
keep wild beasts for show, were much better worth seeing than any they
had passed, being ten times more fierce and unmanageable.
He led them next to that quarter where those reside who, as they
are not dangerous to themselves or others, enjoy a certain degree of
freedom, according to the state of their distemper.
Harley had fallen behind his companions, looking at a man who was
making pendulums with bits of thread and little balls of clay. He had
delineated a segment of a circle on the wall with chalk, and marked
their different vibrations by intersecting it with cross lines. A
decent-looking man came up, and smiling at the maniac, turned to
Harley, and told him that gentleman had once been a very celebrated
mathematician. "He fell a sacrifice," said he, "to the theory of
comets; for having, with infinite labour, formed a table on the
conjectures of Sir Isaac Newton, he was disappointed in the return of
one of those luminaries, and was very soon after obliged to be placed
here by his friends. If you please to follow me, sir," continued the
stranger, "I believe I shall be able to give you a more satisfactory
account of the unfortunate people you see here than the man who attends
your companions."
Harley bowed, and accepted his offer.
The next person they came up to had scrawled a variety of figures
on a piece of slate. Harley had the curiosity to take a nearer view of
them. They consisted of different columns, on the top of which were
marked South-sea annuities, India-stock, and Three per cent. annuities
consol. "This," said Harley's instructor, "was a gentleman well known
in Change Alley. He was once worth fifty thousand pounds, and had
actually agreed for the purchase of an estate in the West, in order to
realise his money; but he quarrelled with the proprietor about the
repairs of the garden wall, and so returned to town, to follow his old
trade of stock-jobbing a little longer; when an unlucky fluctuation of
stock, in which he was engaged to an immense extent, reduced him at
once to poverty and to madness. Poor wretch! he told me t'other day
that against the next payment of differences he should be some hundreds
above a plum."
"It is a spondee, and I will maintain it," interrupted a voice on
his left hand. This assertion was followed by a very rapid recital of
some verses from Homer. "That figure," said the gentleman, "whose
clothes are so bedaubed with snuff, was a schoolmaster of some
reputation: he came hither to be resolved of some doubts he entertained
concerning the genuine pronunciation of the Greek vowels. In his
highest fits, he makes frequent mention of one Mr. Bentley.
"But delusive ideas, sir, are the motives of the greatest part of
mankind, and a heated imagination the power by which their actions are
incited: the world, in the eye of a philosopher, may be said to be a
large madhouse." "It is true," answered Harley, "the passions of men
are temporary madnesses; and sometimes very fatal in their effects.
From Macedonia's madman to the Swede."
"It was, indeed," said the stranger, "a very mad thing in Charles
to think of adding so vast a country as Russia to his dominions: that
would have been fatal indeed; the balance of the North would then have
been lost; but the Sultan and I would never have allowed it."—"Sir!"
said Harley, with no small surprise on his countenance.—"Why, yes,"
answered the other, "the Sultan and I; do you know me? I am the Chan
of Tartary."
Harley was a good deal struck by this discovery; he had prudence
enough, however, to conceal his amazement, and bowing as low to the
monarch as his dignity required, left him immediately, and joined his
companions.
He found them in a quarter of the house set apart for the insane
of the other sex, several of whom had gathered about the female
visitors, and were examining, with rather more accuracy than might have
been expected, the particulars of their dress.
Separate from the rest stood one whose appearance had something of
superior dignity. Her face, though pale and wasted, was less squalid
than those of the others, and showed a dejection of that decent kind,
which moves our pity unmixed with horror: upon her, therefore, the eyes
of all were immediately turned. The keeper who accompanied them
observed it: "This," said he, "is a young lady who was born to ride in
her coach and six. She was beloved, if the story I have heard is true,
by a young gentleman, her equal in birth, though by no means her match
in fortune: but love, they say, is blind, and so she fancied him as
much as he did her. Her father, it seems, would not hear of their
marriage, and threatened to turn her out of doors if ever she saw him
again. Upon this the young gentleman took a voyage to the West Indies,
in hopes of bettering his fortune, and obtaining his mistress; but he
was scarce landed, when he was seized with one of the fevers which are
common in those islands, and died in a few days, lamented by every one
that knew him. This news soon reached his mistress, who was at the
same time pressed by her father to marry a rich miserly fellow, who was
old enough to be her grandfather. The death of her lover had no effect
on her inhuman parent: he was only the more earnest for her marriage
with the man he had provided for her; and what between her despair at
the death of the one, and her aversion to the other, the poor young
lady was reduced to the condition you see her in. But God would not
prosper such cruelty; her father's affairs soon after went to wreck,
and he died almost a beggar."
Though this story was told in very plain language, it had
particularly attracted Harley's notice; he had given it the tribute of
some tears. The unfortunate young lady had till now seemed entranced
in thought, with her eyes fixed on a little garnet ring she wore on her
finger; she turned them now upon Harley. "My Billy is no more!" said
she; "do you weep for my Billy? Blessings on your tears! I would weep
too, but my brain is dry; and it burns, it burns, it burns!"—She drew
nearer to Harley.—"Be comforted, young lady," said he, "your Billy is
in heaven."—"Is he, indeed? and shall we meet again? and shall that
frightful man (pointing to the keeper) not be there!—Alas! I am
grown naughty of late; I have almost forgotten to think of heaven: yet
I pray sometimes; when I can, I pray; and sometimes I sing; when I am
saddest, I sing:—You shall hear me—hush!
"Light be the earth on Billy's breast,
And green the sod that wraps his grave."
There was a plaintive wildness in the air not to be withstood;
and, except the keeper's, there was not an unmoistened eye around her.
"Do you weep again?" said she. "I would not have you weep: you
are like my Billy; you are, believe me; just so he looked when he gave
me this ring; poor Billy! 'twas the last time ever we met! -
"'Twas when the seas were roaring—I love you for resembling my
Billy; but I shall never love any man like him."—She stretched out
her hand to Harley; he pressed it between both of his, and bathed it
with his tears.—"Nay, that is Billy's ring," said she, "you cannot
have it, indeed; but here is another, look here, which I plated to-day
of some gold-thread from this bit of stuff; will you keep it for my
sake? I am a strange girl; but my heart is harmless: my poor heart; it
will burst some day; feel how it beats!" She pressed his hand to her
bosom, then holding her head in the attitude of listening—"Hark! one,
two, three! be quiet, thou little trembler; my Billy is cold!—but I
had forgotten the ring."—She put it on his finger. "Farewell! I
must leave you now."—She would have withdrawn her hand; Harley held
it to his lips.—"I dare not stay longer; my head throbs sadly:
farewell!"—She walked with a hurried step to a little apartment at
some distance. Harley stood fixed in astonishment and pity; his friend
gave money to the keeper.—Harley looked on his ring.—He put a
couple of guineas into the man's hand: "Be kind to that unfortunate."—
He burst into tears, and left them.
The friend who had conducted him to Moorfields called upon him
again the next evening. After some talk on the adventures of the
preceding day: "I carried you yesterday," said he to Harley, "to visit
the mad; let me introduce you to-night, at supper, to one of the wise:
but you must not look for anything of the Socratic pleasantry about
him; on the contrary, I warn you to expect the spirit of a Diogenes.
That you may be a little prepared for his extraordinary manner, I will
let you into some particulars of his history.
"He is the elder of the two sons of a gentleman of considerable
estate in the country. Their father died when they were young: both
were remarkable at school for quickness of parts and extent of genius;
this had been bred to no profession, because his father's fortune,
which descended to him, was thought sufficient to set him above it; the
other was put apprentice to an eminent attorney. In this the
expectations of his friends were more consulted than his own
inclination; for both his brother and he had feelings of that warm kind
that could ill brook a study so dry as the law, especially in that
department of it which was allotted to him. But the difference of
their tempers made the characteristical distinction between them. The
younger, from the gentleness of his nature, bore with patience a
situation entirely discordant to his genius and disposition. At times,
indeed, his pride would suggest of how little importance those talents
were which the partiality of his friends had often extolled: they were
now incumbrances in a walk of life where the dull and the ignorant
passed him at every turn; his fancy and his feeling were invincible
obstacles to eminence in a situation where his fancy had no room for
exertion, and his feeling experienced perpetual disgust. But these
murmurings he never suffered to be heard; and that he might not offend
the prudence of those who had been concerned in the choice of his
profession, he continued to labour in it several years, till, by the
death of a relation, he succeeded to an estate of a little better than
£100 a year, with which, and the small patrimony left him, he retired
into the country, and made a love-match with a young lady of a similar
temper to his own, with whom the sagacious world pitied him for finding
happiness.
"But his elder brother, whom you are to see at supper, if you will
do us the favour of your company, was naturally impetuous, decisive,
and overbearing. He entered into life with those ardent expectations
by which young men are commonly deluded: in his friendships, warm to
excess; and equally violent in his dislikes. He was on the brink of
marriage with a young lady, when one of those friends, for whose honour
he would have pawned his life, made an elopement with that very
goddess, and left him besides deeply engaged for sums which that good
friend's extravagance had squandered.
"The dreams he had formerly enjoyed were now changed for ideas of
a very different nature. He abjured all confidence in anything of
human form; sold his lands, which still produced him a very large
reversion, came to town, and immured himself, with a woman who had been
his nurse, in little better than a garret; and has ever since applied
his talents to the vilifying of his species. In one thing I must take
the liberty to instruct you; however different your sentiments may be
(and different they must be), you will suffer him to go on without
contradiction; otherwise, he will be silent immediately, and we shall
not get a word from him all the night after." Harley promised to
remember this injunction, and accepted the invitation of his friend.
When they arrived at the house, they were informed that the
gentleman was come, and had been shown into the parlour. They found
him sitting with a daughter of his friend's, about three years old, on
his knee, whom he was teaching the alphabet from a horn book: at a
little distance stood a sister of hers, some years older. "Get you
away, miss," said he to this last; "you are a pert gossip, and I will
have nothing to do with you."—"Nay," answered she, "Nancy is your
favourite; you are quite in love with Nancy."—"Take away that girl,"
said he to her father, whom he now observed to have entered the room;
"she has woman about her already." The children were accordingly
dismissed.
Betwixt that and supper-time he did not utter a syllable. When
supper came, he quarrelled with every dish at table, but eat of them
all; only exempting from his censures a salad, "which you have not
spoiled," said he, "because you have not attempted to cook it."
When the wine was set upon the table, he took from his pocket a
particular smoking apparatus, and filled his pipe, without taking any
more notice of Harley, or his friend, than if no such persons had been
in the room.
Harley could not help stealing a look of surprise at him; but his
friend, who knew his humour, returned it by annihilating his presence
in the like manner, and, leaving him to his own meditations, addressed
himself entirely to Harley.
In their discourse some mention happened to be made of an amiable
character, and the words honour and politeness were
applied to it. Upon this, the gentleman, laying down his pipe, and
changing the tone of his countenance, from an ironical grin to
something more intently contemptuous: "Honour," said he: "Honour and
Politeness! this is the coin of the world, and passes current with the
fools of it. You have substituted the shadow Honour, instead of the
substance Virtue; and have banished the reality of friendship for the
fictitious semblance which you have termed Politeness: politeness,
which consists in a certain ceremonious jargon, more ridiculous to the
ear of reason than the voice of a puppet. You have invented sounds,
which you worship, though they tyrannize over your peace; and are
surrounded with empty forms, which take from the honest emotions of
joy, and add to the poignancy of misfortune." "Sir!" said Harley—his
friend winked to him, to remind him of the caution he had received. He
was silenced by the thought. The philosopher turned his eye upon him:
he examined him from top to toe, with a sort of triumphant contempt;
Harley's coat happened to be a new one; the other's was as shabby as
could possibly be supposed to be on the back of a gentleman: there was
much significance in his look with regard to this coat; it spoke of the
sleekness of folly and the threadbareness of wisdom.
"Truth," continued he, "the most amiable, as well as the most
natural of virtues, you are at pains to eradicate. Your very nurseries
are seminaries of falsehood; and what is called Fashion in manhood
completes the system of avowed insincerity. Mankind, in the gross, is
a gaping monster, that loves to be deceived, and has seldom been
disappointed: nor is their vanity less fallacious to your philosophers,
who adopt modes of truth to follow them through the paths of error, and
defend paradoxes merely to be singular in defending them. These are
they whom ye term Ingenious; 'tis a phrase of commendation I detest: it
implies an attempt to impose on my judgment, by flattering my
imagination; yet these are they whose works are read by the old with
delight, which the young are taught to look upon as the codes of
knowledge and philosophy.
"Indeed, the education of your youth is every way preposterous;
you waste at school years in improving talents, without having ever
spent an hour in discovering them; one promiscuous line of instruction
is followed, without regard to genius, capacity, or probable situation
in the commonwealth. From this bear-garden of the pedagogue, a raw,
unprincipled boy is turned loose upon the world to travel; without any
ideas but those of improving his dress at Paris, or starting into taste
by gazing on some paintings at Rome. Ask him of the manners of the
people, and he will tell you that the skirt is worn much shorter in
France, and that everybody eats macaroni in Italy. When he returns
home, he buys a seat in parliament, and studies the constitution at
Arthur's.
"Nor are your females trained to any more useful purpose: they are
taught, by the very rewards which their nurses propose for good
behaviour, by the first thing like a jest which they hear from every
male visitor of the family, that a young woman is a creature to be
married; and when they are grown somewhat older, are instructed that it
is the purpose of marriage to have the enjoyment of pin-money, and the
expectation of a jointure."
"These, {61}
indeed, are the effects of luxury, which is, perhaps, inseparable from
a certain degree of power and grandeur in a nation. But it is not
simply of the progress of luxury that we have to complain: did its
votaries keep in their own sphere of thoughtless dissipation, we might
despise them without emotion; but the frivolous pursuits of pleasure
are mingled with the most important concerns of the state; and public
enterprise shall sleep till he who should guide its operation has
decided his bets at Newmarket, or fulfilled his engagement with a
favourite mistress in the country. We want some man of acknowledged
eminence to point our counsels with that firmness which the counsels of
a great people require. We have hundreds of ministers, who press
forward into office without having ever learned that art which is
necessary for every business: the art of thinking; and mistake the
petulance, which could give inspiration to smart sarcasms on an
obnoxious measure in a popular assembly, for the ability which is to
balance the interest of kingdoms, and investigate the latent sources of
national superiority. With the administration of such men the people
can never be satisfied; for besides that their confidence is gained
only by the view of superior talents, there needs that depth of
knowledge, which is not only acquainted with the just extent of power,
but can also trace its connection with the expedient, to preserve its
possessors from the contempt which attends irresolution, or the
resentment which follows temerity."
* * * * *
[Here a considerable part is wanting.]
* * "In short, man is an animal equally selfish and vain. Vanity,
indeed, is but a modification of selfishness. From the latter, there
are some who pretend to be free: they are generally such as declaim
against the lust of wealth and power, because they have never been able
to attain any high degree in either: they boast of generosity and
feeling. They tell us (perhaps they tell us in rhyme) that the
sensations of an honest heart, of a mind universally benevolent, make
up the quiet bliss which they enjoy; but they will not, by this, be
exempted from the charge of selfishness. Whence the luxurious
happiness they describe in their little family-circles? Whence the
pleasure which they feel, when they trim their evening fires, and
listen to the howl of winter's wind? Whence, but from the secret
reflection of what houseless wretches feel from it? Or do you
administer comfort in affliction—the motive is at hand; I have had it
preached to me in nineteen out of twenty of your consolatory discourses
- the comparative littleness of our own misfortunes.
"With vanity your best virtues are grossly tainted: your
benevolence, which ye deduce immediately from the natural impulse of
the heart, squints to it for its reward. There are some, indeed, who
tell us of the satisfaction which flows from a secret consciousness of
good actions: this secret satisfaction is truly excellent—when we
have some friend to whom we may discover its excellence."
He now paused a moment to re-light his pipe, when a clock, that
stood at his back, struck eleven; he started up at the sound, took his
hat and his cane, and nodding good night with his head, walked out of
the room. The gentleman of the house called a servant to bring the
stranger's surtout. "What sort of a night is it, fellow?" said he.—
"It rains, sir," answered the servant, "with an easterly wind."—
"Easterly for ever!" He made no other reply; but shrugging up his
shoulders till they almost touched his ears, wrapped himself tight in
his great coat, and disappeared.
"This is a strange creature," said his friend to Harley. "I
cannot say," answered he, "that his remarks are of the pleasant kind:
it is curious to observe how the nature of truth may be changed by the
garb it wears; softened to the admonition of friendship, or soured into
the severity of reproof: yet this severity may be useful to some
tempers; it somewhat resembles a file: disagreeable in its operation,
but hard metals may be the brighter for it."
* * *
The company at the baronet's removed to the playhouse accordingly,
and Harley took his usual route into the Park. He observed, as he
entered, a fresh-looking elderly gentleman in conversation with a
beggar, who, leaning on his crutch, was recounting the hardships he had
undergone, and explaining the wretchedness of his present condition.
This was a very interesting dialogue to Harley; he was rude enough,
therefore, to slacken his pace as he approached, and at last to make a
full stop at the gentleman's back, who was just then expressing his
compassion for the beggar, and regretting that he had not a farthing of
change about him. At saying this, he looked piteously on the fellow:
there was something in his physiognomy which caught Harley's notice:
indeed, physiognomy was one of Harley's foibles, for which he had been
often rebuked by his aunt in the country, who used to tell him that
when he was come to her years and experience he would know that all's
not gold that glitters: and it must be owned that his aunt was a very
sensible, harsh-looking maiden lady of threescore and upwards. But he
was too apt to forget this caution and now, it seems, it had not
occurred to him. Stepping up, therefore, to the gentleman, who was
lamenting the want of silver, "Your intentions, sir," said he, "are so
good, that I cannot help lending you my assistance to carry them into
execution," and gave the beggar a shilling. The other returned a
suitable compliment, and extolled the benevolence of Harley. They kept
walking together, and benevolence grew the topic of discourse.
The stranger was fluent on the subject. "There is no use of
money," said he, "equal to that of beneficence. With the profuse, it
is lost; and even with those who lay it out according to the prudence
of the world, the objects acquired by it pall on the sense, and have
scarce become our own till they lose their value with the power of
pleasing; but here the enjoyment grows on reflection, and our money is
most truly ours when it ceases being in our possession.
"Yet I agree in some measure," answered Harley, "with those who
think that charity to our common beggars is often misplaced; there are
objects less obtrusive whose title is a better one."
"We cannot easily distinguish," said the stranger; "and even of
the worthless, are there not many whose imprudence, or whose vice, may
have been one dreadful consequence of misfortune?"
Harley looked again in his face, and blessed himself for his skill
in physiognomy.
By this time they had reached the end of the walk, the old
gentleman leaning on the rails to take breath, and in the meantime they
were joined by a younger man, whose figure was much above the
appearance of his dress, which was poor and shabby. Harley's former
companion addressed him as an acquaintance, and they turned on the walk
together.
The elder of the strangers complained of the closeness of the
evening, and asked the other if he would go with him into a house hard
by, and take one draught of excellent cyder. "The man who keeps this
house," said he to Harley, "was once a servant of mine. I could not
think of turning loose upon the world a faithful old fellow, for no
other reason but that his age had incapacitated him; so I gave him an
annuity of ten pounds, with the help of which he has set up this little
place here, and his daughter goes and sells milk in the city, while her
father manages his tap-room, as he calls it, at home. I can't well ask
a gentleman of your appearance to accompany me to so paltry a place."
"Sir," replied Harley, interrupting him, "I would much rather enter it
than the most celebrated tavern in town. To give to the necessitous
may sometimes be a weakness in the man; to encourage industry is a duty
in the citizen." They entered the house accordingly.
On a table at the corner of the room lay a pack of cards, loosely
thrown together. The old gentleman reproved the man of the house for
encouraging so idle an amusement. Harley attempted to defend him from
the necessity of accommodating himself to the humour of his guests, and
taking up the cards, began to shuffle them backwards and forwards in
his hand. "Nay, I don't think cards so unpardonable an amusement as
some do," replied the other; "and now and then, about this time of the
evening, when my eyes begin to fail me for my book, I divert myself
with a game at piquet, without finding my morals a bit relaxed by it.
Do you play piquet, sir?" (to Harley.) Harley answered in the
affirmative; upon which the other proposed playing a pool at a shilling
the game, doubling the stakes; adding, that he never played higher with
anybody.
Harley's good nature could not refuse the benevolent old man; and
the younger stranger, though he at first pleaded prior engagements, yet
being earnestly solicited by his friend, at last yielded to
solicitation.
When they began to play, the old gentleman, somewhat to the
surprise of Harley, produced ten shillings to serve for markers of his
score. "He had no change for the beggar," said Harley to himself; "but
I can easily account for it; it is curious to observe the affection
that inanimate things will create in us by a long acquaintance. If I
may judge from my own feelings, the old man would not part with one of
these counters for ten times its intrinsic value; it even got the
better of his benevolence! I, myself, have a pair of old brass sleeve
buttons." Here he was interrupted by being told that the old gentleman
had beat the younger, and that it was his turn to take up the
conqueror. "Your game has been short," said Harley. "I re-piqued
him," answered the old man, with joy sparkling in his countenance.
Harley wished to be re-piqued too, but he was disappointed; for he had
the same good fortune against his opponent. Indeed, never did fortune,
mutable as she is, delight in mutability so much as at that moment.
The victory was so quick, and so constantly alternate, that the stake,
in a short time, amounted to no less a sum than £12, Harley's
proportion of which was within half-a-guinea of the money he had in his
pocket. He had before proposed a division, but the old gentleman
opposed it with such a pleasant warmth in his manner, that it was
always over-ruled. Now, however, he told them that he had an
appointment with some gentlemen, and it was within a few minutes of his
hour. The young stranger had gained one game, and was engaged in the
second with the other; they agreed, therefore, that the stake should be
divided, if the old gentleman won that: which was more than probable,
as his score was 90 to 35, and he was elder hand; but a momentous
re-pique decided it in favour of his adversary, who seemed to enjoy his
victory mingled with regret, for having won too much, while his friend,
with great ebullience of passion, many praises of his own good play,
and many malediction's on the power of chance, took up the cards, and
threw them into the fire.
The company he was engaged to meet were assembled in Fleet
Street. He had walked some time along the Strand, amidst a crowd of
those wretches who wait the uncertain wages of prostitution, with ideas
of pity suitable to the scene around him and the feelings he possessed,
and had got as far as Somerset House, when one of them laid hold of his
arm, and, with a voice tremulous and faint, asked him for a pint of
wine, in a manner more supplicatory than is usual with those whom the
infamy of their profession has deprived of shame. He turned round at
the demand, and looked steadfastly on the person who made it.
She was above the common size, and elegantly formed; her face was
thin and hollow, and showed the remains of tarnished beauty. Her eyes
were black, but had little of their lustre left; her cheeks had some
paint laid on without art, and productive of no advantage to her
complexion, which exhibited a deadly paleness on the other parts of her
face.
Harley stood in the attitude of hesitation; which she,
interpreting to her advantage, repeated her request, and endeavoured to
force a leer of invitation into her countenance. He took her arm, and
they walked on to one of those obsequious taverns in the neighbourhood,
where the dearness of the wine is a discharge in full for the character
of the house. From what impulse he did this we do not mean to enquire;
as it has ever been against our nature to search for motives where bad
ones are to be found. They entered, and a waiter showed them a room,
and placed a bottle of claret on the table.
Harley filled the lady's glass: which she had no sooner tasted,
than dropping it on the floor, and eagerly catching his arm, her eye
grew fixed, her lip assumed a clayey whiteness, and she fell back
lifeless in her chair.
Harley started from his seat, and, catching her in his arms,
supported her from falling to the ground, looking wildly at the door,
as if he wanted to run for assistance, but durst not leave the
miserable creature. It was not till some minutes after that it
occurred to him to ring the bell, which at last, however, he thought
of, and rung with repeated violence even after the waiter appeared.
Luckily the waiter had his senses somewhat more about him; and
snatching up a bottle of water, which stood on a buffet at the end of
the room, he sprinkled it over the hands and face of the dying figure
before him. She began to revive, and, with the assistance of some
hartshorn drops, which Harley now for the first time drew from his
pocket, was able to desire the waiter to bring her a crust of bread, of
which she swallowed some mouthfuls with the appearance of the keenest
hunger. The waiter withdrew: when turning to Harley, sobbing at the
same time, and shedding tears, "I am sorry, sir," said she, "that I
should have given you so much trouble; but you will pity me when I tell
you that till now I have not tasted a morsel these two days past."—He
fixed his eyes on hers—every circumstance but the last was forgotten;
and he took her hand with as much respect as if she had been a
duchess. It was ever the privilege of misfortune to be revered by him.
- "Two days!" said he; "and I have fared sumptuously every day!"—He
was reaching to the bell; she understood his meaning, and prevented
him. "I beg, sir," said she, "that you would give yourself no more
trouble about a wretch who does not wish to live; but, at present, I
could not eat a bit; my stomach even rose at the last mouthful of that
crust."—He offered to call a chair, saying that he hoped a little
rest would relieve her.—He had one half-guinea left. "I am sorry,"
he said, "that at present I should be able to make you an offer of no
more than this paltry sum."—She burst into tears: "Your generosity,
sir, is abused; to bestow it on me is to take it from the virtuous. I
have no title but misery to plead: misery of my own procuring." "No
more of that," answered Harley; "there is virtue in these tears; let
the fruit of them be virtue."—He rung, and ordered a chair.—"Though
I am the vilest of beings," said she, "I have not forgotten every
virtue; gratitude, I hope, I shall still have left, did I but know who
is my benefactor."—"My name is Harley."—"Could I ever have an
opportunity?"—"You shall, and a glorious one too! your future conduct
- but I do not mean to reproach you—if, I say—it will be the
noblest reward—I will do myself the pleasure of seeing you again."—
Here the waiter entered, and told them the chair was at the door; the
lady informed Harley of her lodgings, and he promised to wait on her at
ten next morning.
He led her to the chair, and returned to clear with the waiter,
without ever once reflecting that he had no money in his pocket. He
was ashamed to make an excuse; yet an excuse must be made: he was
beginning to frame one, when the waiter cut him short by telling him
that he could not run scores; but that, if he would leave his watch, or
any other pledge, it would be as safe as if it lay in his pocket.
Harley jumped at the proposal, and pulling out his watch, delivered it
into his hands immediately, and having, for once, had the precaution to
take a note of the lodging he intended to visit next morning, sallied
forth with a blush of triumph on his face, without taking notice of the
sneer of the waiter, who, twirling the watch in his hand, made him a
profound bow at the door, and whispered to a girl, who stood in the
passage, something, in which the word CULLY was honoured with a
particular emphasis.
After he had been some time with the company he had appointed to
meet, and the last bottle was called for, he first recollected that he
would be again at a loss how to discharge his share of the reckoning.
He applied, therefore, to one of them, with whom he was most intimate,
acknowledging that he had not a farthing of money about him; and, upon
being jocularly asked the reason, acquainted them with the two
adventures we have just now related. One of the company asked him if
the old man in Hyde Park did not wear a brownish coat, with a narrow
gold edging, and his companion an old green frock, with a buff-coloured
waistcoat. Upon Harley's recollecting that they did, "Then," said he,
"you may be thankful you have come off so well; they are two as noted
sharpers, in their way, as any in town, and but t'other night took me
in for a much larger sum. I had some thoughts of applying to a
justice, but one does not like to be seen in those matters."
Harley answered, "That he could not but fancy the gentleman was
mistaken, as he never saw a face promise more honesty than that of the
old man he had met with."—"His face!" said a grave-looking man, when
sat opposite to him, squirting the juice of his tobacco obliquely into
the grate. There was something very emphatical in the action, for it
was followed by a burst of laughter round the table. "Gentlemen," said
Harley, "you are disposed to be merry; it may be as you imagine, for I
confess myself ignorant of the town; but there is one thing which makes
me hear the loss of my money with temper: the young fellow who won it
must have been miserably poor; I observed him borrow money for the
stake from his friend: he had distress and hunger in his countenance:
be his character what it may, his necessities at least plead for him."
At this there was a louder laugh than before. "Gentlemen," said the
lawyer, one of whose conversations with Harley we have already
recorded, "here's a pretty fellow for you! to have heard him talk some
nights ago, as I did, you might have sworn he was a saint; yet now he
games with sharpers, and loses his money, and is bubbled by a fine tale
of the Dead Sea, and pawns his watch; here are sanctified doings with a
witness!"
"Young gentleman," said his friend on the other side of the table,
"let me advise you to be a little more cautious for the future; and as
for faces—you may look into them to know whether a man's nose be a
long or a short one."
The last night's raillery of his companions was recalled to his
remembrance when he awoke, and the colder homilies of prudence began to
suggest some things which were nowise favourable for a performance of
his promise to the unfortunate female he had met with before. He rose,
uncertain of his purpose; but the torpor of such considerations was
seldom prevalent over the warmth of his nature. He walked some turns
backwards and forwards in his room; he recalled the languid form of the
fainting wretch to his mind; he wept at the recollection of her tears.
"Though I am the vilest of beings, I have not forgotten every virtue;
gratitude, I hope, I shall still have left."—He took a larger stride
- "Powers of mercy that surround me!" cried he, "do ye not smile upon
deeds like these? to calculate the chances of deception is too tedious
a business for the life of man!"—The clock struck ten.—When he was
got down-stairs, he found that he had forgot the note of her lodgings;
he gnawed his lips at the delay: he was fairly on the pavement, when he
recollected having left his purse; he did but just prevent himself from
articulating an imprecation. He rushed a second time up into his
chamber. "What a wretch I am!" said he; "ere this time, perhaps—"
'Twas a perhaps not to be borne;—two vibrations of a pendulum would
have served him to lock his bureau; but they could not be spared.
When he reached the house, and inquired for Miss Atkins (for that
was the lady's name), he was shown up three pair of stairs, into a
small room lighted by one narrow lattice, and patched round with shreds
of different-coloured paper. In the darkest corner stood something
like a bed, before which a tattered coverlet hung by way of curtain.
He had not waited long when she appeared. Her face had the glister of
new-washed tears on it. "I am ashamed, sir," said she, "that you
should have taken this fresh piece of trouble about one so little
worthy of it; but, to the humane, I know there is a pleasure in
goodness for its own sake: if you have patience for the recital of my
story, it may palliate, though it cannot excuse, my faults." Harley
bowed, as a sign of assent; and she began as follows:-
"I am the daughter of an officer, whom a service of forty years
had advanced no higher than the rank of captain. I have had hints from
himself, and been informed by others, that it was in some measure owing
to those principles of rigid honour, which it was his boast to possess,
and which he early inculcated on me, that he had been able to arrive at
no better station. My mother died when I was a child: old enough to
grieve for her death, but incapable of remembering her precepts.
Though my father was doatingly fond of her, yet there were some
sentiments in which they materially differed: she had been bred from
her infancy in the strictest principles of religion, and took the
morality of her conduct from the motives which an adherence to those
principles suggested. My father, who had been in the army from his
youth, affixed an idea of pusillanimity to that virtue, which was
formed by the doctrines, excited by the rewards, or guarded by the
terrors of revelation; his dashing idol was the honour of a soldier: a
term which he held in such reverence, that he used it for his most
sacred asseveration. When my mother died, I was some time suffered to
continue in those sentiments which her instructions had produced; but
soon after, though, from respect to her memory, my father did not
absolutely ridicule them, yet he showed, in his discourse to others, so
little regard to them, and at times suggested to me motives of action
so different, that I was soon weaned from opinions which I began to
consider as the dreams of superstition, or the artful inventions of
designing hypocrisy. My mother's books were left behind at the
different quarters we removed to, and my reading was principally
confined to plays, novels, and those poetical descriptions of the
beauty of virtue and honour, which the circulating libraries easily
afforded.
"As I was generally reckoned handsome, and the quickness of my
parts extolled by all our visitors, my father had a pride in allowing
me to the world. I was young, giddy, open to adulation, and vain of
those talents which acquired it.
"After the last war, my father was reduced to half-pay; with which
we retired to a village in the country, which the acquaintance of some
genteel families who resided in it, and the cheapness of living,
particularly recommended. My father rented a small house, with a piece
of ground sufficient to keep a horse for him, and a cow for the benefit
of his family. An old man servant managed his ground; while a maid,
who had formerly been my mother's, and had since been mine, undertook
the care of our little dairy: they were assisted in each of their
provinces by my father and me: and we passed our time in a state of
tranquillity, which he had always talked of with delight, and my train
of reading had taught me to admire.
"Though I had never seen the polite circles of the metropolis, the
company my father had introduced me into had given me a degree of good
breeding, which soon discovered a superiority over the young ladies of
our village. I was quoted as an example of politeness, and my company
courted by most of the considerable families in the neighbourhood.
"Amongst the houses where I was frequently invited was Sir George
Winbrooke's. He had two daughters nearly of my age, with whom, though
they had been bred up in those maxims of vulgar doctrine which my
superior understanding could not but despise, yet as their good nature
led them to an imitation of my manners in everything else, I cultivated
a particular friendship.
"Some months after our first acquaintance, Sir George's eldest son
came home from his travels. His figure, his address, and conversation,
were not unlike those warm ideas of an accomplished man which my
favourite novels had taught me to form; and his sentiments on the
article of religion were as liberal as my own: when any of these
happened to be the topic of our discourse, I, who before had been
silent, from a fear of being single in opposition, now kindled at the
fire he raised, and defended our mutual opinions with all the eloquence
I was mistress of. He would be respectfully attentive all the while;
and when I had ended, would raise his eyes from the ground, look at me
with a gaze of admiration, and express his applause in the highest
strain of encomium. This was an incense the more pleasing, as I seldom
or never had met with it before; for the young gentlemen who visited
Sir George were for the most part of that athletic order, the pleasure
of whose lives is derived from fox-hunting: these are seldom solicitous
to please the women at all; or if they were, would never think of
applying their flattery to the mind.
"Mr. Winbrooke observed the weakness of my soul, and took every
occasion of improving the esteem he had gained. He asked my opinion of
every author, of every sentiment, with that submissive diffidence,
which showed an unlimited confidence in my understanding. I saw myself
revered, as a superior being, by one whose judgment my vanity told me
was not likely to err: preferred by him to all the other visitors of my
sex, whose fortunes and rank should have entitled them to a much higher
degree of notice: I saw their little jealousies at the distinguished
attention he paid me; it was gratitude, it was pride, it was love!
Love which had made too fatal a progress in my heart, before any
declaration on his part should have warranted a return: but I
interpreted every look of attention, every expression of compliment, to
the passion I imagined him inspired with, and imputed to his
sensibility that silence which was the effect of art and design. At
length, however, he took an opportunity of declaring his love: he now
expressed himself in such ardent terms, that prudence might have
suspected their sincerity: but prudence is rarely found in the
situation I had been unguardedly led into; besides, that the course of
reading to which I had been accustomed, did not lead me to conclude,
that his expressions could be too warm to be sincere: nor was I even
alarmed at the manner in which he talked of marriage, a subjection, he
often hinted, to which genuine love should scorn to be confined. The
woman, he would often say, who had merit like mine to fix his
affection, could easily command it for ever. That honour too which I
revered, was often called in to enforce his sentiments. I did not,
however, absolutely assent to them; but I found my regard for their
opposites diminish by degrees. If it is dangerous to be convinced, it
is dangerous to listen; for our reason is so much of a machine, that it
will not always be able to resist, when the ear is perpetually assailed.
"In short, Mr. Harley (for I tire you with a relation, the
catastrophe of which you will already have imagined), I fell a prey to
his artifices. He had not been able so thoroughly to convert me, that
my conscience was silent on the subject; but he was so assiduous to
give repeated proofs of unabated affection, that I hushed its
suggestions as they rose. The world, however, I knew, was not to be
silenced; and therefore I took occasion to express my uneasiness to my
seducer, and entreat him, as he valued the peace of one to whom he
professed such attachment, to remove it by a marriage. He made excuse
from his dependence on the will of his father, but quieted my fears by
the promise of endeavouring to win his assent.
"My father had been some days absent on a visit to a dying
relation, from whom he had considerable expectations. I was left at
home, with no other company than my books: my books I found were not
now such companions as they used to be; I was restless, melancholy,
unsatisfied with myself. But judge my situation when I received a
billet from Mr. Winbrooke informing me, that he had sounded Sir George
on the subject we had talked of, and found him so averse to any match
so unequal to his own rank and fortune, that he was obliged, with
whatever reluctance, to bid adieu to a place, the remembrance of which
should ever be dear to him.
"I read this letter a hundred times over. Alone, helpless,
conscious of guilt, and abandoned by every better thought, my mind was
one motley scene of terror, confusion, and remorse. A thousand
expedients suggested themselves, and a thousand fears told me they
would be vain: at last, in an agony of despair, I packed up a few
clothes, took what money and trinkets were in the house, and set out
for London, whither I understood he was gone; pretending to my maid,
that I had received letters from my father requiring my immediate
attendance. I had no other companion than a boy, a servant to the man
from whom I hired my horses. I arrived in London within an hour of Mr.
Winbrooke, and accidentally alighted at the very inn where he was.
"He started and turned pale when he saw me; but recovered himself
in time enough to make many new protestations of regard, and beg me to
make myself easy under a disappointment which was equally afflicting to
him. He procured me lodgings, where I slept, or rather endeavoured to
sleep, for that night. Next morning I saw him again, he then mildly
observed on the imprudence of my precipitate flight from the country,
and proposed my removing to lodgings at another end of the town, to
elude the search of my father, till he should fall upon some method of
excusing my conduct to him, and reconciling him to my return. We took
a hackney-coach, and drove to the house he mentioned.
"It was situated in a dirty lane, furnished with a tawdry
affectation of finery, with some old family pictures hanging on walls
which their own cobwebs would better have suited. I was struck with a
secret dread at entering, nor was it lessened by the appearance of the
landlady, who had that look of selfish shrewdness, which, of all
others, is the most hateful to those whose feelings are untinctured
with the world. A girl, who she told us was her niece, sat by her,
playing on a guitar, while herself was at work, with the assistance of
spectacles, and had a prayer-book with the leaves folded down in
several places, lying on the table before her. Perhaps, sir, I tire
you with my minuteness, but the place, and every circumstance about it,
is so impressed on my mind, that I shall never forget it.
"I dined that day with Mr. Winbrooke alone. He lost by degrees
that restraint which I perceived too well to hang about him before,
and, with his former gaiety and good humour, repeated the flattering
things which, though they had once been fatal, I durst not now
distrust. At last, taking my hand and kissing it, 'It is thus,' said
he, 'that love will last, while freedom is preserved; thus let us ever
be blessed, without the galling thought that we are tied to a condition
where we may cease to be so.'
"I answered, 'That the world thought otherwise: that it had
certain ideas of good fame, which it was impossible not to wish to
maintain.'
"'The world,' said he, 'is a tyrant, they are slaves who obey it;
let us be happy without the pale of the world. To-morrow I shall leave
this quarter of it, for one where the talkers of the world shall be
foiled, and lose us. Could not my Emily accompany me? my friend, my
companion, the mistress of my soul! Nay, do not look so, Emily! Your
father may grieve for a while, but your father shall be taken care of;
this bank-bill I intend as the comfort for his daughter.'
"I could contain myself no longer: 'Wretch,' I exclaimed, 'dost
thou imagine that my father's heart could brook dependence on the
destroyer of his child, and tamely accept of a base equivalent for her
honour and his own?'
"'Honour, my Emily,' said he, 'is the word of fools, or of those
wiser men who cheat them. 'Tis a fantastic bauble that does not suit
the gravity of your father's age; but, whatever it is, I am afraid it
can never be perfectly restored to you: exchange the word then, and let
pleasure be your object now.'
"At these words he clasped me in his arms, and pressed his lips
rudely to my bosom. I started from my seat. 'Perfidious villain!'
said I, 'who dar'st insult the weakness thou hast undone; were that
father here, thy coward soul would shrink from the vengeance of his
honour! Cursed be that wretch who has deprived him of it! oh doubly
cursed, who has dragged on his hoary head the infamy which should have
crushed her own!' I snatched a knife which lay beside me, and would
have plunged it in my breast, but the monster prevented my purpose, and
smiling with a grin of barbarous insult -
"'Madam,' said he, 'I confess you are rather too much in heroics
for me; I am sorry we should differ about trifles; but as I seem
somehow to have offended you, I would willingly remedy it by taking my
leave. You have been put to some foolish expense in this journey on my
account; allow me to reimburse you.'
"So saying he laid a bank-bill, of what amount I had no patience
to see, upon the table. Shame, grief, and indignation choked my
utterance; unable to speak my wrongs, and unable to bear them in
silence, I fell in a swoon at his feet.
"What happened in the interval I cannot tell, but when I came to
myself I was in the arms of the landlady, with her niece chafing my
temples, and doing all in her power for my recovery. She had much
compassion in her countenance; the old woman assumed the softest look
she was capable of, and both endeavoured to bring me comfort. They
continued to show me many civilities, and even the aunt began to be
less disagreeable in my sight. To the wretched, to the forlorn, as I
was, small offices of kindness are endearing.
"Meantime my money was far spent, nor did I attempt to conceal my
wants from their knowledge. I had frequent thoughts of returning to my
father; but the dread of a life of scorn is insurmountable. I avoided,
therefore, going abroad when I had a chance of being seen by any former
acquaintance, nor indeed did my health for a great while permit it; and
suffered the old woman, at her own suggestion, to call me niece at
home, where we now and then saw (when they could prevail on me to leave
my room) one or two other elderly women, and sometimes a grave
business-like man, who showed great compassion for my indisposition,
and made me very obligingly an offer of a room at his country-house for
the recovery of my health. This offer I did not chose to accept, but
told my landlady, 'that I should be glad to be employed in any way of
business which my skill in needlework could recommend me to,
confessing, at the same time, that I was afraid I should scarce be able
to pay her what I already owed for board and lodging, and that for her
other good offices, I had nothing but thanks to give her.'
"'My dear child,' said she, 'do not talk of paying; since I lost
my own sweet girl' (here she wept), 'your very picture she was, Miss
Emily, I have nobody, except my niece, to whom I should leave any
little thing I have been able to save; you shall live with me, my dear;
and I have sometimes a little millinery work, in which, when you are
inclined to it, you may assist us. By the way, here are a pair of
ruffles we have just finished for that gentleman you saw here at tea; a
distant relation of mine, and a worthy man he is. 'Twas pity you
refused the offer of an apartment at his country house; my niece, you
know, was to have accompanied you, and you might have fancied yourself
at home; a most sweet place it is, and but a short mile beyond
Hampstead. Who knows, Miss Emily, what effect such a visit might have
had! If I had half your beauty I should not waste it pining after e'er
a worthless fellow of them all.'
"I felt my heart swell at her words; I would have been angry if I
could, but I was in that stupid state which is not easily awakened to
anger: when I would have chid her the reproof stuck in my throat; I
could only weep!
"Her want of respect increased, as I had not spirit to assert it.
My work was now rather imposed than offered, and I became a drudge for
the bread I eat: but my dependence and servility grew in proportion,
and I was now in a situation which could not make any extraordinary
exertions to disengage itself from either—I found myself with child.
"At last the wretch, who had thus trained me to destruction,
hinted the purpose for which those means had been used. I discovered
her to be an artful procuress for the pleasures of those who are men of
decency to the world in the midst of debauchery.
"I roused every spark of courage within me at the horrid
proposal. She treated my passion at first somewhat mildly, but when I
continued to exert it she resented it with insult, and told me plainly
that if I did not soon comply with her desires I should pay her every
farthing I owed, or rot in a jail for life. I trembled at the thought;
still, however, I resisted her importunities, and she put her threats
in execution. I was conveyed to prison, weak from my condition, weaker
from that struggle of grief and misery which for some time I had
suffered. A miscarriage was the consequence.
"Amidst all the horrors of such a state, surrounded with wretches
totally callous, lost alike to humanity and to shame, think, Mr.
Harley, think what I endured; nor wonder that I at last yielded to the
solicitations of that miscreant I had seen at her house, and sunk to
the prostitution which he tempted. But that was happiness compared to
what I have suffered since. He soon abandoned me to the common use of
the town, and I was cast among those miserable beings in whose society
I have since remained.
"Oh! did the daughters of virtue know our sufferings; did they see
our hearts torn with anguish amidst the affectation of gaiety which our
faces are obliged to assume! our bodies tortured by disease, our minds
with that consciousness which they cannot lose! Did they know, did
they think of this, Mr. Harley! Their censures are just, but their
pity perhaps might spare the wretches whom their justice should condemn.
"Last night, but for an exertion of benevolence which the
infection of our infamy prevents even in the humane, had I been thrust
out from this miserable place which misfortune has yet left me; exposed
to the brutal insults of drunkenness, or dragged by that justice which
I could not bribe, to the punishment which may correct, but, alas! can
never amend the abandoned objects of its terrors. From that, Mr.
Harley, your goodness has relieved me."
He beckoned with his hand: he would have stopped the mention of
his favours; but he could not speak, had it been to beg a diadem.
She saw his tears; her fortitude began to fail at the sight, when
the voice of some stranger on the stairs awakened her attention. She
listened for a moment, then starting up, exclaimed, "Merciful God! my
father's voice!"
She had scarce uttered the word, when the door burst open, and a
man entered in the garb of an officer. When he discovered his daughter
and Harley, he started back a few paces; his look assumed a furious
wildness! he laid his hand on his sword. The two objects of his wrath
did not utter a syllable.
"Villain," he cried, "thou seest a father who had once a
daughter's honour to preserve; blasted as it now is, behold him ready
to avenge its loss!"
Harley had by this time some power of utterance. "Sir," said he,
"if you will be a moment calm—"
"Infamous coward!" interrupted the other, "dost thou preach
calmness to wrongs like mine!"
He drew his sword.
"Sir," said Harley, "let me tell you"—the blood ran quicker to
his cheek, his pulse beat one, no more, and regained the temperament of
humanity—"you are deceived, sir," said he, "you are much deceived;
but I forgive suspicions which your misfortunes have justified: I would
not wrong you, upon my soul I would not, for the dearest gratification
of a thousand worlds; my heart bleeds for you!"
His daughter was now prostrate at his feet.
"Strike," said she, "strike here a wretch, whose misery cannot end
but with that death she deserves."
Her hair had fallen on her shoulders! her look had the horrid
calmness of out-breathed despair! Her father would have spoken; his
lip quivered, his cheek grew pale, his eyes lost the lightning of their
fury! there was a reproach in them, but with a mingling of pity. He
turned them up to heaven, then on his daughter. He laid his left hand
on his heart, the sword dropped from his right, he burst into tears.
Harley kneeled also at the side of the unfortunate daughter.
"Allow me, sir," said he, "to entreat your pardon for one whose
offences have been already so signally punished. I know, I feel, that
those tears, wrung from the heart of a father, are more dreadful to her
than all the punishments your sword could have inflicted: accept the
contrition of a child whom heaven has restored to you."
"Is she not lost," answered he, "irrecoverably lost? Damnation! a
common prostitute to the meanest ruffian!"
"Calmly, my dear sir," said Harley, "did you know by what
complicated misfortunes she had fallen to that miserable state in which
you now behold her, I should have no need of words to excite your
compassion. Think, sir, of what once she was. Would you abandon her
to the insults of an unfeeling world, deny her opportunity of
penitence, and cut off the little comfort that still remains for your
afflictions and her own!"
"Speak," said he, addressing himself to his daughter; "speak; I
will hear thee."
The desperation that supported her was lost; she fell to the
ground, and bathed his feet with her tears.
Harley undertook her cause: he related the treacheries to which
she had fallen a sacrifice, and again solicited the forgiveness of her
father. He looked on her for some time in silence; the pride of a
soldier's honour checked for a while the yearnings of his heart; but
nature at last prevailed, he fell on her neck and mingled his tears
with hers.
Harley, who discovered from the dress of the stranger that he was
just arrived from a journey, begged that they would both remove to his
lodgings, till he could procure others for them. Atkins looked at him
with some marks of surprise. His daughter now first recovered the
power of speech.
"Wretch as I am," said she, "yet there is some gratitude due to
the preserver of your child. See him now before you. To him I owe my
life, or at least the comfort of imploring your forgiveness before I
die."
"Pardon me, young gentleman," said Atkins, "I fear my passion
wronged you."
"Never, never, sir," said Harley "if it had, your reconciliation
to your daughter were an atonement a thousand fold." He then repeated
his request that he might be allowed to conduct them to his lodgings,
to which Mr. Atkins at last consented. He took his daughter's arm.
"Come, my Emily," said he, "we can never, never recover that
happiness we have lost! but time may teach us to remember our
misfortunes with patience."
When they arrived at the house where Harley lodged, he was
informed that the first floor was then vacant, and that the gentleman
and his daughter might be accommodated there. While he was upon his
enquiry, Miss Atkins informed her father more particularly what she
owed to his benevolence. When he turned into the room where they were
Atkins ran and embraced him;—begged him again to forgive the offence
he had given him, and made the warmest protestations of gratitude for
his favours. We would attempt to describe the joy which Harley felt on
this occasion, did it not occur to us that one half of the world could
not understand it though we did, and the other half will, by this time,
have understood it without any description at all.
Miss Atkins now retired to her chamber, to take some rest from the
violence of the emotions she had suffered. When she was gone, her
father, addressing himself to Harley, said, "You have a right, sir, to
be informed of the present situation of one who owes so much to your
compassion for his misfortunes. My daughter I find has informed you
what that was at the fatal juncture when they began. Her distresses
you have heard, you have pitied as they deserved; with mine, perhaps, I
cannot so easily make you acquainted. You have a feeling heart, Mr.
Harley; I bless it that it has saved my child; but you never were a
father, a father torn by that most dreadful of calamities, the
dishonour of a child he doated on! You have been already informed of
some of the circumstances of her elopement: I was then from home,
called by the death of a relation, who, though he would never advance
me a shilling on the utmost exigency in his life-time, left me all the
gleanings of his frugality at his death. I would not write this
intelligence to my daughter, because I intended to be the bearer
myself; and as soon as my business would allow me, I set out on my
return, winged with all the haste of paternal affection. I fondly
built those schemes of future happiness, which present prosperity is
ever busy to suggest: my Emily was concerned in them all. As I
approached our little dwelling my heart throbbed with the anticipation
of joy and welcome. I imagined the cheering fire, the blissful
contentment of a frugal meal, made luxurious by a daughter's smile, I
painted to myself her surprise at the tidings of our new-acquired
riches, our fond disputes about the disposal of them.
"The road was shortened by the dreams of happiness I enjoyed, and
it began to be dark as I reached the house: I alighted from my horse,
and walked softly upstairs to the room we commonly sat in. I was
somewhat disappointed at not finding my daughter there. I rung the
bell; her maid appeared, and shewed no small signs of wonder at the
summons. She blessed herself as she entered the room: I smiled at her
surprise. 'Where is Miss Emily, sir?' said she.
"'Emily!'
"'Yes, sir; she has been gone hence some days, upon receipt of
those letters you sent her.'
"'Letters!' said I.
"'Yes, sir, so she told me, and went off in all haste that very
night.'
"I stood aghast as she spoke, but was able so far to recollect
myself, as to put on the affectation of calmness, and telling her there
was certainly some mistake in the affair, desired her to leave me.
"When she was gone, I threw myself into a chair, in that state of
uncertainty which is, of all others, the most dreadful. The gay
visions with which I had delighted myself, vanished in an instant. I
was tortured with tracing back the same circle of doubt and
disappointment. My head grew dizzy as I thought. I called the servant
again, and asked her a hundred questions, to no purpose; there was not
room even for conjecture.
"Something at last arose in my mind, which we call Hope, without
knowing what it is. I wished myself deluded by it; but it could not
prevail over my returning fears. I rose and walked through the room.
My Emily's spinnet stood at the end of it, open, with a book of music
folded down at some of my favourite lessons. I touched the keys; there
was a vibration in the sound that froze my blood; I looked around, and
methought the family pictures on the walls gazed on me with compassion
in their faces. I sat down again with an attempt at more composure; I
started at every creaking of the door, and my ears rung with imaginary
noises!
"I had not remained long in this situation, when the arrival of a
friend, who had accidentally heard of my return, put an end to my
doubts, by the recital of my daughter's dishonour. He told me he had
his information from a young gentleman, to whom Winbrooke had boasted
of having seduced her.
"I started from my seat, with broken curses on my lips, and
without knowing whither I should pursue them, ordered my servant to
load my pistols and saddle my horses. My friend, however, with great
difficulty, persuaded me to compose myself for that night, promising to
accompany me on the morrow, to Sir George Winbrooke's in quest of his
son.
"The morrow came, after a night spent in a state little distant
from madness. We went as early as decency would allow to Sir
George's. He received me with politeness, and indeed compassion,
protested his abhorrence of his son's conduct, and told me that he had
set out some days before for London, on which place he had procured a
draft for a large sum, on pretence of finishing his travels, but that
he had not heard from him since his departure.
"I did not wait for any more, either of information or comfort,
but, against the united remonstrances of Sir George and my friend, set
out instantly for London, with a frantic uncertainty of purpose; but
there, all manner of search was in vain. I could trace neither of them
any farther than the inn where they first put up on their arrival; and
after some days fruitless inquiry, returned home destitute of every
little hope that had hitherto supported me. The journeys I had made,
the restless nights I had spent, above all, the perturbation of my
mind, had the effect which naturally might be expected—a very
dangerous fever was the consequence. From this, however, contrary to
the expectation of my physicians, I recovered. It was now that I first
felt something like calmness of mind: probably from being reduced to a
state which could not produce the exertions of anguish or despair. A
stupid melancholy settled on my soul; I could endure to live with an
apathy of life; at times I forgot my resentment, and wept at the
remembrance of my child.
"Such has been the tenor of my days since that fatal moment when
these misfortunes began, till yesterday, that I received a letter from
a friend in town, acquainting me of her present situation. Could such
tales as mine, Mr. Harley, be sometimes suggested to the daughters of
levity, did they but know with what anxiety the heart of a parent
flutters round the child he loves, they would be less apt to construe
into harshness that delicate concern for their conduct, which they
often complain of as laying restraint upon things, to the young, the
gay, and the thoughtless, seemingly harmless and indifferent. Alas! I
fondly imagined that I needed not even these common cautions! my Emily
was the joy of my age, and the pride of my soul! Those things are now
no more, they are lost for ever! Her death I could have born, but the
death of her honour has added obloquy and shame to that sorrow which
bends my grey hairs to the dust!"
As he spoke these last words, his voice trembled in his throat; it
was now lost in his tears. He sat with his face half turned from
Harley, as if he would have hid the sorrow which he felt. Harley was
in the same attitude himself; he durst not meet his eye with a tear,
but gathering his stifled breath, "Let me entreat you, sir," said he,
"to hope better things. The world is ever tyrannical; it warps our
sorrows to edge them with keener affliction. Let us not be slaves to
the names it affixes to motive or to action. I know an ingenuous mind
cannot help feeling when they sting. But there are considerations by
which it may be overcome. Its fantastic ideas vanish as they rise;
they teach us to look beyond it."
* * * * *
A FRAGMENT. SHOWING HIS SUCCESS WITH THE BARONET
* * The card he received was in the politest style in which
disappointment could be communicated. The baronet "was under a
necessity of giving up his application for Mr. Harley, as he was
informed that the lease was engaged for a gentleman who had long served
His Majesty in another capacity, and whose merit had entitled him to
the first lucrative thing that should be vacant." Even Harley could
not murmur at such a disposal. "Perhaps," said he to himself, "some
war-worn officer, who, like poor Atkins, had been neglected from
reasons which merited the highest advancement; whose honour could not
stoop to solicit the preferment he deserved; perhaps, with a family,
taught the principles of delicacy, without the means of supporting it;
a wife and children—gracious heaven! whom my wishes would have
deprived of bread—"
He was interrupted in his reverie by some one tapping him on the
shoulder, and, on turning round, he discovered it to be the very man
who had explained to him the condition of his gay companion at Hyde
Park Corner. "I am glad to see you, sir," said he; "I believe we are
fellows in disappointment." Harley started, and said that he was at a
loss to understand him. "Pooh! you need not be so shy," answered the
other; "every one for himself is but fair, and I had much rather you
had got it than the rascally gauger." Harley still protested his
ignorance of what he meant. "Why, the lease of Bancroft Manor; had not
you been applying for it?" "I confess I was," replied Harley; "but I
cannot conceive how you should be interested in the matter." "Why, I
was making interest for it myself," said he, "and I think I had some
title. I voted for this same baronet at the last election, and made
some of my friends do so too; though I would not have you imagine that
I sold my vote. No, I scorn it, let me tell you I scorn it; but I
thought as how this man was staunch and true, and I find he's but a
double-faced fellow after all, and speechifies in the House for any
side he hopes to make most by. Oh, how many fine speeches and
squeezings by the hand we had of him on the canvas! 'And if ever I
shall be so happy as to have an opportunity of serving you.' A murrain
on the smooth-tongued knave, and after all to get it for this pimp of a
gauger." "The gauger! there must be some mistake," said Harley. "He
writes me, that it was engaged for one whose long services—"
"Services!" interrupted the other; "you shall hear. Services! Yes,
his sister arrived in town a few days ago, and is now sempstress to the
baronet. A plague on all rogues, says honest Sam Wrightson. I shall
but just drink damnation to them to-night, in a crown's worth of
Ashley's, and leave London to-morrow by sun-rise." "I shall leave it
too," said Harley; and so he accordingly did.
In passing through Piccadill